The Long Walk

This journey is certainly going to be long. As I take this path, there will definitely be rest stops and side roads. All of which I feel I have been on too much of late. I was going to say that I have been so lost, but I realize I have not. This time I have wandered down a side road, it is giving me something to think upon. View my actions, and change can be created upon that. So deep I fall into depression and anger. Lost and confused. Unwilling to look ahead, unwilling to take one step after another. The lotus inside me is so deep in the mud, but I feel it growing and pushing, trying to make its way to the surface, but every time I get close, I take a side road. I sit on that bench. There is a definite fear that grips me, my own mind? Holding me back. I know it is only myself that is doing this. Mind over matter. But yet, there it is. I want this so badly, yet I can't get myself to fully commit. It is something I don't understand right now. Something I am reflecting upon. So many excuses, there is no one here to relate, I have no time, I have no teacher.... All of which is false. I have all the time I want to give. My teacher is always with me, I am never alone.

 I have all the time I want to give. My teacher is always with me, I am never alone.